Monday, June 22, 2009 / 1:46 PM
First of all if i dont say anything here.. i doubt this conflict will be resolved... what i am saying later in the post will be quite disturbing and may hurt all of u but guess thats the only way out if u guys want to understand why am i like that?
On 20th June... We went out together... with yijin absent absent becauz of the reason of celebrating father's day... and zhen xin went off early cuz he had tuition.... So Ting hui came at round 2.45pm and join me after lunch with his family at IMM... Shi hui came after that with her friends... To do english project work..They went off to a corner doing some stuffs... leaving me and ting hui to study...At 4.15pm i sms shi hui and told her that we will b leaving at 5pm....
Originaly expected her to AT LEAST COME and join us for A WHILE... i don expect it to be 15mins or longer cuz i know that u are buzy with your english project work and i do not want to waste your time.... even if it is a short 1min... me and ting hui will feel appreciated... despite the long wait by me in the library for almost 4 hours.... jus to get a spot to study at... becauze at morning that day the library is overcrowded .. i donno why also... but its tough to get place after patrolling in the library for over 30min.... even our favourite 3rd floor spot is taken... so i have no choice but to find a spot at 4th flooor...
At first me and shi hui decide that we will help each other with the D&t coursework...
i help her add pages in her folio and she help me decorate...
but i did not see her carry any D&t stuffs since she came... NVm.....
Thats the ultimate purpose of me coming on that day... cuz i cannot possibly finish my research in the library as internet access is needed....
So that ultimately defeats the purpose of going to the library on that day.....
Pls don blame ting hui for anything that i have say if u are offended cuz it is all purely my opinion..
At round 7.35pm when i am having my dinner.. shi hui called me and ask me whether if i would like to go far east or go to the library... At first i intended to go far east to enjoy ourselves.. but thinking of the amount of work completed for my folio , i decideed to finish it up asap....
So i opted to go library instead...
I am being informed by shi hui that yijin and zhen xin will not be going cuz of somethings on for fathers day or whatever...
My parents heard my conversation with shi hui through the phone ... and tell me not to waste my time waiting in the library for my friends... spend my time wisely and etc....
I am determined to prove them wrong by arranging a specific time with shi hui on the study plan on 21 June ....
Shi hui told me that she will be able to make it between 1.30 to 2pm....
I told her that i need a specific timing but she could not give it... maybe its becoz of some matters.... so nvm..
To prove that my father is wrong in saying that i am actually wasting my time waiting for friends... i decicded to go early to the library to book a spot WITH TABLE AND CHAIR...
i reach at 12.15 despite ting hui calling me at 11.45 to ask for exact timing.... i found a spot at one corner of the library and happpily waited for shi hui and ting hui...
At bout 1.30 ... ting hui sms me that he will be reaching a bit late cuz he went to his grandma house and have lunch with his family at Imm again..
Did not sms shi hui cuz i expected her to keep to her promise that she will reach the library by 2.
Actually i don expect her to come b4 time cuz that seldoms happen..so i give her some time till 3.
By then ting hui is already there with me.. so i go and eat....
By the time i come back shi hui is not there yet.. ok nvm.... but it is getting a little bit too much isn't it?
can't you just sms anyone of us and tell us you will b late? and why?
BUT STILL I HAVE BROKEN THE PROMISE WITH MY DAD ... I WASTED MY TIME WAITING IN THE LIBRARY.... AND NOT SPENDING IT WISELY... its father's day you know?
I am already feeling very guilty for not able to spend it with my father...I chose to spend it with my friends... despite on such important occasion... i nevver fail to celebrate father's day every year... BUT this year i make it an exception... i trusted shi hui to keep her promise but she did not.. Sorry DAD..... REALLY SORRY.....
Upon reaching.... shi hui only said that she is sorry to be late...
Originally i intend to forgive her if she tell me WHY she is late and apologise sincerely?
But i am disapponted not to hear that... so i kept quiet .... giving her a chance to say it but she never did throughout the whole time in the library...
i went home.... if not i will erupt on the spot....
i cant stand the tense atmosphere....
i did not do anything in the library yesterday... its all rough work... totally wasted my time just as predicted by my dad.... thought that shi hui will bring her folio but she did not....
From shi hui's perspective, i will b smsing ting hui and ghee hing first if i am late and probably joke around to get back the mood... but i guess she is down with other emotional subject...
So i don really expected her to joke.. just that a reason why are u late?
From my perspective, i intended to offer a great study place with tables and chair for shi hui and ting hui... just for yesterday.... but was greatly disappointed....
Lastly i would like to commend on shi hui's post....
This commend again will be harsher.. but this is how i feel about the incidents. CORRECT ME if i am wrong....
In the year of sec 3 and sec4 ....
We all know that rachael took part in campus superstar... and thats when i started to gather all my primary school friends just to keep in contact and not to lose all my best friends in my primary school life... i really treasure them sometimes so i think it is important to find them back...They help me through times of sorrow and joy.. that i must really thank them...
As we are sec 4 this year.. i intended to form back a group of best friend and study together for the aim of O levels OR N levels...
Purpose of study group is to get to know all my best friend all from the start since we are not contacting each other since P6 ...
Everything starts small.. friendship takes time to reform itself... It all starts from 30% foundation understanding....
Anything can happened in the time span between P6 to Sec 3 or Sec 4....
CHaracter change.. personality change... So it is a challenge to accept each other again....
Nevertheless i still take on the challenge despite risking myself to losing my best friends...
I just want to find back beautiful memories of pri school life....
Shi hui said that her rashes had not recovered... welll we dont mind waiting... just that sometimes we are just bored... We did not realli force you to go outt... ( pls don take this sentence to heart.. absorb the meaning and ignore the tone..)
Shi hui said that she had not enough sleep .. well what can we do?
Sometimes when u are feeling bored ... all we friends can do is to accompany you out ... what else can we do?? u yourself have to take care of your health isn't it?
Well about the uncontactable incident... Ever since you told me that your msg bill is too much... i cut down smsing you on several occasions... Only on some important things.. isn't it? can u feel that? But you at least must give me a reply or a call isn't it? so i know that u got my msg... and not exactly wasting my sms.. or action?
Take the sms i send to you on 20 june as an example... i told you that we will be leaving at 5pm sharp... you could at least sms me back, call me , or check out on us and say that sorry guys unable to join u today... isn't it?
We went to library on 20 june since you requested it that sat will be a study day and sun will be an outing day isn't it ???
We are there for you but.....
Going at comfortable timing..... What exactly do u mean by that?
i know you girls like to go at comfortable timing.... i am not being petty here..
Try to put yourself in a guy situation and wait for a girl for more than an hour.... do u feel like it?
i know that u girls like to go at comfortable timing... but it should not be too overboard isn't it?
Late by 30min we guys still can tolerate... but 1 hour is simply too much....
An example will b ysterday.. u said u will reach by 1.30 to 2 but you reach at 3++.....
i just want to let u girls know that sometimes not all guys have that patience....
everybody has a limit before raising their temper.... sometimes we can tolerate.. but pls don take it for granted can?
Maybe what i suggest would be you girls organise a specific time with us... lets say 2.30 and you take initiative to prepare at 1 can??
So this will save all unhappiness.... this is not all about tantrum or pettiness... jobs out there do not tolerate ppl being late.. society remains cruel and decisive... if u are late.. it is not that girls will not be penalised... the world is fair .... i think THAT NO company IN THE WORLD will praise its worker for coming to work late? isn't it?
Just as ting hui said.... i aim to resolve this conflict in a peaceful manner.. i do not want to destroy everything that we had built up since sec 3 or sec 4 ... or else all those birthday parties we are celebrating together will be pointless...
As well as all the activity that we had gone through...
To cut it short...
my temper is not being raised by this hot weather.. its just some misunderstanding we guys had over one another....
There had been times of joy , times of sorrow.. but should there be a time of tolerance and understanding?
Understanding that people will not be disappointed in you... understanding that ppl will not lose trust in you....Understanding that all friends remain as friends forever???
Finally.....
I wish to resolve this conflict once again through peaceful means....
i do not wish that this problem would affect the friendship we had built over 10 over years for some of us....
I mean .. Its silly isn't it??
Just wish that you guys will sometimes put yourself in other ppl's situation and think ... you will get different opinion and different degree of situation....
If you guys are still mad at me... we can always talk and resolve everything online... or meet up..
Nevertheless i still sincerely APOLOGISE TO ALL IF I HAVE OFFENDED IN SOME WAYS...Personally i do not wish to see the iddiots family fall... but if u guys won't accept it and forgive me... i don realli know what to say le....
If i don't take the first move, who will?
Just get over this and go out happily as one family.. ok??
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