Maybe it will be better..
i just dont wish to let anger cloud all of your mind so u all can think propely...
we let each other have some peace and settle things out... isn't that a proper way?
If u guys were not in the mood to see or listen to me... then close this window immediately cause everything would be nonsense.....
To ting hui...
You mentioned that sometimes i am giving you guys 'cold shoulders'...
Its not the case sometimes.. sometimes i just want to have some time to cool down.. I don't get angry and go berserk often u should know... i needed time to stay calm and think about what have i done? am i in the wrong or are they in the wrong? and make a decision.... sometimes it takes days or weeks... which all my friend would refer me as an emo person....
you mentioned about attitude and who on earth wants to b late....
i know everyone would b late sometimes... no body has total control over time...
i am late b4 and i know that...
but sometimes....i dono if i should really say this... once in a while if u are late.. ppl can understand and not continuously isn't it? rite?
Its not that i am unable to do without shi hui in D&T...just that my main motive there is to help her and she aid me as well... so that we can really benefit from each other...
And at the end of the study session on sunday... its not that i wanted to leave you and shi hui in a hurry for home...
in fact i am no leaving in a rage... As mentioned.. i needed time to think about what have i done since shi hui threw her handphone at you and wanted to let you look at the msg that i send to both of u.... i admit that by saying dont waste your time here... its very disturbing and raise your temper.... for this point i am sorry for this... But if i dont say that i am afraid i will raise my temper at you 2 which might be worst... i dont want to see this so i kept quiet for the whole session listening to music just to cool myself down... its not that i dont want to hear you and shi hui explain....
Yes, on those rules that u had suggested would b quite useful but ever since idiots blog were started.. both u and zhen xin were not even posting in it... so i thought that u guys were not in this and did not take a look at the blog... so it would be poinntless for me to post it in to remind u guys... furthermore shi hui and yijin were always waking up late during the morning and i doubt they will inform u bout this...in fact i believe that you and zhen xin informing them would be much more practical...
To Zhen Xin,
Firstly i shall not used harsh words to express myself..
Its not that i try to act pro in english or what....
Its just that sometimes using harsh languages will only aggravate the situation instead of solving it....
As a word of advice by the passerby....
each and everyone of us need to do some individual reflection on what we have done... instead of blaming each other for what they have done...
as mentioned.. all agreed that some of us were in the wrong someplace in this conflict... Instead of lettting frustration and anger takes over... one should try to forgive ?
I will start off with the most disturbing post you had made..
U mentioned maturity and told me to grow up....
i personally do not wish that thats a good word to use as it is VERY sensitive to all... our birthday ranges from jan to june and thats a nice 6months gap..
Maturity for each of us remains different and there is not a need for you to discriminate others maturity on top of your own...
Once again maturity right? what i can say is that i had already done by best to understand shi hui has got rashes and are not feeling well... but she insist of coming with us... i appreciate this very much and like to say thank u to shi hui ....
But.... if you tell me to spare a thought for shi hui and let her come at her comfortable timing... despite beig late... i dont think there is even a level of maturity thinking in it....
If you are mature enough and think for others... you would wish the best for others for now and the future.... Being late is not a criteria that one with mature thinking would accept... It becomes a habit and adopting coming late as a habit is not a thing to be proud of isn't it?
furthermore.. everyone grows and they nid to go to work... it would be hard..
I know that everyone changes as time goes by... but why make it a habit to come late and it would be hard to change in the future??
Once again.. i am not boasting that i have the highest intelligence or maturity among all...
About the indonesian holiday's present.... i really did say Thanks to ting hui.. but i think he did not hear it... so nvm if you want to put the blame on me....
You also mentioned something about me going early and why care all of u all going late by just a few minutes...?
what i can say is that.... i am not going there early.... its just that i am double as anxious to study again after a week with you guys and wanted to tried and find a nice spot wth chairs and tables.. i went there early.. hoping that it will be vacant..
If you dont really appreciate me going there early .. so be it.. i don mind....
And sometimes its not late by a few minutes you know?
It can b to the extent for 1hr or more...
Can u ever imagine how frustrated it becomes to wait for 4 person in a whole big table and reject anyone who comes and plea me to let them sit?
Lastly to reply your last sentence... "I dont think that will be quite possible starting from today unless something happened....
All i can say is that i really don expect you to have such negative impression and conclusion about this incident... everything is possible as long as we settle down individually to think about what can b done to save this friendship....
To Yijin,
Well i dont really have much to say for your part since you were absent for both days and dont really know wha happened...
i just would reply what u feel about this....
you said that:
Why is ting hui and zhen xin have this patience to tolerate girls and i could not do this?
All i can say is that different people have different level of tolerance and look at things differently... ting hui and zhen xin might be laughing their way even if late coming were expected...but for somebody else... its not the case you know?
I am not being very arrogant here.... But if u would make initiative and come early just once to book a place for us? i think all of us would be very delighted..
sometimes... you know.. i dont want to be too sensitive.. but some things should not be there in place to let others feel uncomfortable about... like late coming.
Hope you would really understand me ....
To Shi Hui,
I am not saying that i am the victim in this incident alone...
Sometimes i do understand that things which i have done had hurt you all...
But things done cannot be undone isn't it?
I do not really remember if i had said sorry to you.. but if i havent i will say it now.. I AM SORRY.. DEEPLY SORRY...
U said how do we mend this scar... and taking me for an identity of a fcking murderer to the friendship.. i do understand by giving sucking attitude i am in total control of full chaos in the group...
But.. is it that serious?
think about it... if u guys were punctual.. i have no rights to b angry isn't it?
I am forgive if its a first time or quite a few times... but sometimes if u guys are really feeling very paiseh for being late.... then do something to amend it.... such as coming to library early than anyone else once a while.... and not just laughing the way and let things pass.... this will only let ppl to have an act of irresponsibility from u isn't it?
And also u said that there is nothing that can be done to save this friendship...
what i can say is that there IS something which can b done.. provided all could learn to forgive each other FIRST... and the will to reunite as a family again...
If there is not a will to do something.. that something WILL never be done....
Lastly for this....
And, i tell you.
CHIA GHEE HING, YOU ARE NO LONGER MY FRIEND.
I dont fucking care whether its my fault or your fault.
my parents told me you are ridiculous and told me not to spend my precious time with you.
i'm not going to prove them wrong or anything, i'm going to listen to them.
omg, you actually know its fucking silly.
then why started this in the first place?
Yes, tolerance has a limit.
I, LIM SHI HUI, HAD ENOUGH OF YOU, CHIA GHEE HING.
i would take it that u are saying out of your anger and do not mean it....
Given evidence that u had the intention to reform the family...
If you don realli have the intention and intend to break up the friendship between u and me... this sentence would be irrelevant...
Personally i hope that this would last...
But if it is your last resort to this incident....
I respect your choice.
Lastly.. I still do hope that everyone would give each other more time to think about it.. everything can be resolved..... as long as an agreement to correct each others mistake could be produced by voicing out what do u want others to change to avoid this incident in the future....
